love or sympathy????

When I see his picture I feel like I want to cry…
Is it love or sympathy?
When he ask me to meet each other…
And I don’t want but actually I scared….
Is it love or sympathy?
Why I feel like this….
I don’t like this kind of feeling…
It makes me feel uncomfortable…
It makes me feel guilty….
It is love or sympathy?
What is a difference between these two words?
Is it same?
The more I think..
The more confuse I get
kikikiki

p/s: don’t stress when you read this….hahaha…
…..please leave your opinion.

MY FANTASY FIRST LOVE

Do you ever fall in love? Honestly, I never fall in love. When I was in secondary school, I have created my fantasy about my first love. I want to fall in love in rainy day. Hahaha….

It starts when I was standing in the rain because I have no umbrella and there is no place I can found to avoid from the rain. Suddenly, cool men wearing all in black with black umbrella appear. He sees me get wet. He approaches me and gives me his umbrella. So cool right? Hahaha…for me la….
I know, this kind of scene is impossible to happen but I like to think about it sometime because it makes me smile. Hahahaha……so childish.
Actually, what I’m going to tell here is about I love rain very much. It gives me some calmness. In my home, I always sit at my verandah while rain. I also hope every sweet thing in my life will happen while rain hahaha….

MY SECOND TOUR IN PENINSULAR MALAYSIA

rest jap.....


learn snorkel...huhu scary

Hello, it’s me again. Now I want to talk about my second tour in Peninsular Malaysia.
As you all know I’m Sabahan girl. This is the first time I fly to Peninsular Malaysia. I hope I will visit all place in Peninsular Malaysia before I go back to my hometown. The first place that I visit in Peninsular Malaysia is Selangor, because I’m study at UKM in Selangor. My second tour is at Pulau Kapas in Terengganu. I go to Pulau Kapas because I need to do my fill work for my course. I’m so exited to go to that place because I like travel. My first impression for that place is beautiful. At Pulau Kapas I learn how to swim and snorkel. Honestly, snorkel is scary thing that I ever do because every time I see under the water I have the feeling that I’m not in earth, so I keep thinking about how I can go back to earth again. So scary!!!!!….. Going to Pulau Kapas also makes me have the chances to visit a few place in Terengganu for example Rantau Abang, Ma’ Daerah and Pasar Payang. In the future I hope I will visit another place again.

BLACK IS ELEGANCE

look my black hand bag...hehe

Hello, it’s me again…..today I want to talk about my favorite color. My favorite color is black. Why I like black? I also don’t know why…. But every time I want to buy something I must look for the black one. You can see I have so many black color item, for example my bag, hand bag, hand phone, hand phone cover, shoes, slipper, umbrella and many more. I also like to wear black color clothes because I feel more confident when I’m in black. So whenever I have presentation or something that I must do in the public I will wear all in black. Hehehe….. a bit strange right??? For me, black is confidence, smart, cool, and elegance. What about you? What is your favorite color? Actually, Black is the color of objects that do not emit or reflect light in any part of the visible spectrum; they absorb all such frequencies of light. Lastly, I want to say that ”I love BLACK so much”.


in black during my drama preseantation

naive art

example of naive art

my art...please don't laugh la......

What is “Naïve art”? Do you know? Let me tell you. Its actually folk art, as an attribute o certain ethnic group is an embodiment of traditions established by the generation during ages. This art look like children drawing. But it’s actually different. This art not follow many rule like the common art. You can draw what you want. You can have the elephant with pink color or whatever color. Its depend on you.
Last Saturday I attend the art seminar in PTSL. The moderator is En Yusuf Gajah, the most popular naïve art artist. He asks as to draw what we want but it must be naïve art. The best thing is, our drawing will sell to the buyer and the money that we got will donate to the Jabatan Kebajikan Pelajar UKM. Actually it is the first time I do a real drawing. Even though my drawing is not beautiful but it make me feel satisfied with this experience.

dinner????

ain, linda and me....emm....glass only???

yeah i got the water

Last Friday on 3 0f April, I have the dinner with my course mate. It’s actually the second dinner that I attend in UKM. But it’s the best, most beautiful and most delicious dinner that I ever attend. The theme of that dinner is “Corporate dinner”. What I like about that dinner is the food. For appetizer we eat Tom Yam soup. The main menu is fried cuttlefish, ikan masam manis, fried chicken, egg (I don’t know the name) and many more. The dessert is apple and coconut pudding. The food look common but its actually delicious especially the fish, cuttlefish and pudding. I enjoy that night because I’m laughing with my friend, singing while we on the bus after the dinner. I’ll never forgot this moment.

a bit mengada...hehehe 1 for 1 year bahhh

a moment to remember.....

makan time......peace

actually i'm not a doctor..this is during my lab

Hello…!!!! It’s me again…kiwie a.k.a Sarmida, Sar or Mid. What do you thing I do in my daily life? Of course I’m eating, sleeping, class, laughing with my friends, washing clothes, bath, surfing internet and many more. Look boring, right??? Because I do same thing everyday. But its do you think. For me it’s interesting because I’m happy. Actually we never do same thing every day even that is actually the same thing. Think about that.
For me what I do now not I do forever, so I must appreciate what I can do now, so that, when I can’t do that again in the future, at least I have the memory to remember.

SOMEONE YOU MUST KNOW......

i'm the one who wear the green veil

I follow this blog long ago. But I never introduce myself officially, right??? I know all of you curious about me…..hahahaha….okey let me tell you who I am. My name is Sarmida Ahmad. Sarmida not exist in Al-Quran only sarmada exist, its mean ‘everlasting’. So, assume sarmida mean everlasting.You can call me Sarmida, Sar or Mid. But never call me Ahmad because it’s my fathers name…..hehehehe. I use kiwie as my brand in this blog. It’s not because I love to eat kiwi fruit but it’s because I think this name is quite sweet and exclusive. But it’s only an opinion la….hehehe.
I come from Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. I only have two siblings. It’s me and my lovely sister. I love to eat durian, chocolate and cake. I hate spicy food. I like chocolate the most because I will feel happy every time I eat chocolate, even I’m in sad mood. So when you see me sad, quickly buy chocolate for me. I’m sure I’ll smile again…hehehe. That’s all from me now….see you leter…

believe me, i don't care~

People starved.
Others spoiled.

People cry.
Others clap.

People screaming, people dying.
People singing, people lying.

Someone cares
It’s not enough.
Someone cries
But life, it’s tough.

Denial is a screen
We hide behind it everyday
But the screen is glass
It’s clear, with cracks.

Hypocrites and Conformists
We all are.
Look into my eyes and stare
To see nothing, not even a soul.

Then you'll believe that I trully don't care...

IF I KNEW........

If I knew it will be the last time
That I see you fall asleep
I would tuck you more tightly
And pray the lord your soul to keep

If I knew it will be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise
I would video tape each action & word
So I can play them back day after day

If I knew it will be the last time
I could spent an extra minute
To stop & say I love you
Instead of assuming you would know I do

If I knew it will be the last time
I would be there to share your day
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more
So I can let just this one slip away

For surely there's tomorrow
To make up for an oversight
And we always get a second chance
To make everything just right

There will always be another day
To say I love you & certainly there's
Another chance to say our
"Anything I can do?"

But just in the case I might be wrong
And today is all I get
I'd like to say how much I love you
And I hope we never forget

Tomorrow is not promise to everyone
Young or old alike
And today may be the last chance
You get to hold your love one tight

So if you are waiting for tomorrow
Why not do it today
For if tomorrow never comes
You'll surely regret the day

That you didnt take that extra times
For a smile a hug or a kiss
And you are too busy to grant someone
What turned out to be their last wish

So hold your loved ones close today
And whisper to their ear
Tell them how much you love them
And that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say "Im sorry"
"Please forgive me", "Thank you" or "Its okay"
And if tomorrow never comes
You'll have no regret for today

Beautiful meaning

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“When LOVE has struck the chord, no one can refuse to dance”
Help me to understand this word.

“Chocolate will make you happy. The best medicine when you said”
It’s true because I love chocolate

“If the time is waiting….maybe she can go back without pass the rain.
If she waiting for the time, maybe she will escape from feeling of beautiful rain drop”
This word is I translate from Malay, it’s my translation is true?

“Silence is the hardest word. In silence, have 1000 meaning. In silence, have 1000 question. In silence, have 1000 answer. And in silence, have 1000 interpretation. In silence, people may say I LOVE YOU. And in silence people may also say we’re not suitable anymore. So what silence that you want?”
This also from Malay, please checks for me.

“Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful” ~Albert Schweitzer~

“Its better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all” ~Alfred Lord Tennyson~

I post all this beautiful word because it has deep meaning.
Think about it.

Good luck!!!!

HaHaHa.....!!!!!!!

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1. Because of horn.
A mother walks with her four years old son with car.
Son: mother, why you press the horn?
Mother: oh, they are our relatives…
After that, the mother presses the horn when a cow crosses the road.
Son: that also our relative?
Mother: ?????......

2. Computer.
Edwin buys a new computer.
Edwin: Sir, I don’t know about computer.
Seller: Don’t worry. If you have any problem, just press the “HELP” button.
Edwin: Easy like that? Okay…..
Tomorrow Edwin comes to the computer shop with anger.
Edwin: you’re liar. Yesterday night I press the “HELP” button, why you didn’t come?
Seller: ?///

7 Manner to Control Your HANDSOME

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1. If you suddenly fall because of kick something.
Don’t stand up quickly, lie down and spin your body until far from people attention. After that, stand up when no one can see you.

2. If you fall from bicycle.
Quickly ride on again your bicycle and fall again for many times. So that, people may think that you’re making a joke.

3. If you fall from stair.
Quickly does any martial art like ghost enter your body or you have a fight with ghost.

4. If you fall in the drain.
Pick the rubbish in the drain while show your anger with loud voice, definitely people guess that you are very concern about hygiene.

5. If you fall when you ride on bus.
Scream loudly “Ooi! Why you push me?” even no one behind you.

6. If you fall in front of bus stop.
Act as you faint until anyone come to help you. If no one comes, lie down until night and wake up when no one at the bus stop.

7. If you slip at the wet floor.
Attract your friend (or anyone near you) to fall together. So that, not only you feel ashamed….right?

don't laugh

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1. Little Pig
One day a pig family consists of mother and baby pig walk in one village. All people in the village give a strange look at them. This is not because they are pig, but because they see one baby pig walk with the head down. So they ask the pig
“Baby pig, why you bend your head?”
The pig reply
“I’m ashamed because my mom is pig”

2. Why his dead?
A mother sees a doctor with tears and has a dialog
Mother: Oh sir, please help me. My son is dead.
Doctor: Poor you. But don’t feel too said. All people will die. But why his dead?
Mother: He ate ant.
Doctor: Strange…!!! Only he ate ant and he die…what did you do after that?
Mother: I spray his mouth with Redsect.
Doctor: #@$%&*

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The Japanese and the Taxi Driver
One day one Japanese come to visit Sabah. After he arrives at the Kota Kinabalu International Airport (KKIA), he takes taxi and asks the taxi driver to bring him around the Kota Kinabalu city.
In the taxi, he asks the driver.
“wah your airport look very big, how many year its build?”
The driver feel vary proud and say
“Oh thank you, it takes about 5 year to build”
“Oh in my country, its only takes 4 years to build building like this” reply the Japanese with proud voice.
The driver feels shame and impressive with the Japanese. When they pass Centre Point, the Japanese say
“What a beautiful building, how many years it builds?”
“It’s about 4 years” the taxi driver said.
“Oh in my country it only takes about 3 year to build” reply the Japanese.
The taxi driver feels bad. When they pass Wisma Merdeka, the Japanese say
“Nice building, how many years it builds?”
“3 years” say the taxi driver.
“Oh in my country its only take about 2 years” the Japanese reply.
The driver feels angry. When they pass Tun Mustapha Tower the Japanese ask again
“Wah!! Unique building, how many years its build?”
The taxi driver reply with anger but slow voice
“Oh I don’t know…because this building not there when I pass this road in this morning”
“Hah???@#*&%” the Japanese shock and speechless.

Natural Beauty Tips

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Natural Beauty Tips
Hi girl… I know all of you want to look beautiful everyday. No need to shy with me, I’m also a girl. Everyday I heard some girl say ……“Oh I got pimple on my face, black head, white head….oh what should I do?”
Hey guy, don’t keep laughing when you read this article. I won’t ask you whether you care or not about your beauty, because I know some of you ego to admit it, right. Don’t shy…any one care about that today. There are many metro sexual guys now for example, David Backham.
If you got a pimple or whatever on your face, some people recommended you to use many beauty products such as Neutrogina, Olay, Clearsil and etc. Be careful with to some product today because some have chemical thing such as mercury, hydroquinone and formaldehyde. That right it can make your face brighten but it also can diminish your skin. So danger!!!!! But friends, bright skin not key for your beauty, but if you care of your hygiene, of course you look beauty. For me, “Beautiful is clean”.
Good news for you friends, because they are many natural thing that you can use to take care your beauty without worried about the side effect. Even this method shows a slow effect, but I guarantee no side effect will happen; only you must be more patient.
Here I list down the natural thing that you can use for your beauty. But not too depend on it. You also must pray for God, because your beauty comes from God. Right???
1. Cucumber: skin moisturizer; neutralize the carcinogenic in roasted food.
2. Tomato: soften the skin, provide vitamin c for body.
3. Aloevera: tauten our skin face and remove the scar.
4. Coconut dregs: as a bath scrub to remove death skin and soften the skin.
5. Rice flour with lime juice: as a toner that help to remove pimple and make our skin pore become small.
6. Honey: lip moisturizer.
7. Dew: for ageless.
8. Coconut milk and hibiscus: hair more soft, black and thick.
9. White egg: as mask to tauten our skin face and remove dead skin
10. Ice cube: tauten our skin face and make our pore become small.
11. Yeast: soften the skin.
12. Milk: brighten our skin.

All this tips I got from magazine, my mother and heard some people say. Try it!!!! You won’t regret it. If you have extra tips, please share with us. Of course we need it….
Remember “beautiful” is subjective, but try to look nice.